{"id":7696,"date":"2015-08-09T01:12:54","date_gmt":"2015-08-08T20:12:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=7696"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:10:45","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:10:45","slug":"vyana-baki-qax-yolculugu-v%c9%99-vicdansiz-yasamaq-qorxusu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=7696","title":{"rendered":"Vyana-Bak\u0131-Qax yol\u00e7ulu\u011fu v\u0259 vicdans\u0131z ya\u015famaq qorxusu"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"vicdan\"<\/a>Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0130yulun 5-d\u0259 Avstriyadan qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fam – \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 5 beyn\u0259lxalq t\u0259dbird\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259r\u0259k, 12 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7irmi\u015f\u0259m. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 f\u0259rqli n\u0259s\u0259 ya\u015fanmay\u0131b – Az\u0259rbaycan h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar, forumlarda erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n diskussiyalar v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n t\u0259qdimat\u0131. Bu, m\u0259nim bir v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f kimi al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259yat t\u0259rzim, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir h\u00fcquq m\u00fcdafi\u0259\u00e7isi kimi v\u0259zif\u0259mdir.<\/p>\n

Vyanadan Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131td\u0131qdan sonra k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7ox qala bilm\u0259dim – d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t istil\u0259r bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n, ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r do\u011fuldu\u011fum torpa\u011f\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259ti d\u0259 dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259ni. Odur ki, bir-ne\u00e7\u0259-g\u00fcn Bak\u0131da qald\u0131qdan sonra \u015f\u0259l\u0259-\u015f\u00fcl\u0259mi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b \u00fcz tutdum avtova\u011fzala – isti yay g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u0259rin Qax\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259ldim.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r zaman oldu\u011fu kimi Qaxa bu d\u0259f\u0259ki s\u0259f\u0259rim d\u0259 m\u0259ni tan\u0131yanlarda, qohum-\u0259qrabalar\u0131m\u0131zda sevinc hissi yaratd\u0131. H\u0259r g\u00fcn bir qohumun evind\u0259 olurdum, g\u00fcnd\u0259 biri qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, getm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 inciyirdil\u0259r. \u00c7\u0259tin d\u0259 olsa, ham\u0131ya ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kirdim, \u00e7\u00fcnki bir d\u0259 Qaxa n\u0259 zaman g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u0259qiq bilmirdim. Sentyabrda is\u0259 Var\u015favada ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k AT\u018fT-in zirv\u0259 toplant\u0131s\u0131nda i\u015ftirak etm\u0259k v\u0259 sonra da silsil\u0259 Avropa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri v\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

\"qaracilar12\"F\u00fcrs\u0259ti \u0259ld\u0259n verm\u0259yib Qax\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan aya\u011f\u0131na kimi g\u0259zdim – Sar\u0131ba\u015fda oldum, \u0130lisu, Qaxba\u015f, Qum, L\u0259kit, G\u00fcll\u00fck, Qa\u011f\u0131\u00e7ay, Tasmal\u0131, L\u0259l\u0259li v\u0259 dig\u0259r k\u0259ndl\u0259rd\u0259ki qohum \u0259qrabalar\u0131ma ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kdim. Qax insan\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259mimiliyi v\u0259 qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rliyi s\u00fcfr\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fc nem\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n duyulurdu.<\/p>\n

H\u0259\u2026 bir d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 k\u00f6vr\u0259k xatir\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259ni o ill\u0259r\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. Biri deyirdi ki, s\u0259nin baban \u015eahidov \u018fhm\u0259dl\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259dik, el\u0259 el\u0259dik. Bir ba\u015fqa qohum dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, m\u0259n u\u015faq olanda ayaqyal\u0131n g\u0259z\u0259rdim h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada. Ba\u011f\u00e7a m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259m m\u0259ni d\u00fckanda g\u00f6r\u00fcb o ill\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc m\u0259ni – ax\u015fam \u0259n ax\u0131rda m\u0259n qalard\u0131m, anam i\u015fl\u0259diyind\u0259n, i\u015fd\u0259n sonra g\u0259lib m\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rdi ba\u011f\u00e7adan v\u0259 m\u0259n ax\u0131ra qalard\u0131m, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim yol \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

\"agsaqqal\"<\/a>B\u00fct\u00fcn bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri e\u015fitdikc\u0259 duy\u011fusalla\u015f\u0131r, k\u00f6vr\u0259lir v\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 saxlaya bilmirdim. O ill\u0259r\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 vaxt tap\u0131b Qax\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bug\u00fcn\u00fc il\u0259 maraqlanma\u011fa macal tapm\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259hay\u0259t ki, buna da vaxt tapd\u0131m. Daha do\u011frusu ucqar k\u0259nd yollar\u0131n\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259n\u0259-silk\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 getdikc\u0259, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar ya\u011fanda kran\u0131m\u0131zdan pal\u00e7\u0131q r\u0259ngli suyu stakana doldurduqca, bir balaca ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axanda i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131z s\u00f6nd\u00fckc\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ay\u0131l\u0131b, bug\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 reall\u0131qla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 qohumlar\u0131m\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rk\u0259n, \u2018Nec\u0259siz, qohumlar?\u2019 sual\u0131ma cavab verm\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n o k\u0259nd insanlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm yava\u015f-yava\u015f. Avropan\u0131n rahat h\u0259yat\u0131na al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir g\u0259nc kimi Qaxda ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

\"gorusler4\"<\/a>Odur ki, bir Qaxl\u0131 kimi u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rini dinl\u0259yib k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 dur deyib, \u00f6z i\u015fimi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bir h\u00fcquq m\u00fcdafi\u0259\u00e7isi kimi k\u0259ndl\u0259rimizi g\u0259zdim, yerli sakinl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdim. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 qohum-\u0259qraba il\u0259 deyil, he\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlar\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcm, da\u011fda-k\u0259s\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7obanl\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olan insanlara yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m, qara\u00e7\u0131 ail\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 oldum, onlar\u0131n ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00a0\u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, onlar\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259dim v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 z\u0259ruri qeydl\u0259r apard\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki, bu, m\u0259nim i\u015fim v\u0259 v\u0259zif\u0259mdir.<\/p>\n

\"gorusler2\"<\/a><\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bu ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m m\u0259nim bir ay \u0259rzind\u0259 Qax rayonunda g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimin bir par\u00e7as\u0131 idi. Daha \u00e7ox qalsayd\u0131m, daha \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

Amma Vyana-Bak\u0131-Qax reysini geri qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131n zaman\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi v\u0259 m\u0259n yenid\u0259n geri qay\u0131tmal\u0131 idim.<\/p>\n

V\u0259 qay\u0131dacam\u2026 Ac\u0131 da olsa v\u0259 bunu etm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc vadar ets\u0259m d\u0259, qay\u0131tmal\u0131yam. Qax\u0131 v\u0259 qaxl\u0131lar\u0131 \u00f6z qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa buraxmaq v\u0259 yenid\u0259n rahat Avropaya qay\u0131tmaq.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fim bunu t\u0259l\u0259b ets\u0259 d\u0259, vicdan\u0131m izn vermir\u2026 Vicdan\u0131ma qulaq assam, i\u015fsiz qalacam. Amma vicdans\u0131z ya\u015famaqdan da qorxuram\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong><\/span>
\n 9 Avqust 2015-ci il, Qax rayonu, Az\u0259rbaycan<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0130yulun 5-d\u0259 Avstriyadan qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fam – \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 5 beyn\u0259lxalq t\u0259dbird\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259r\u0259k, 12 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7irmi\u015f\u0259m. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 f\u0259rqli n\u0259s\u0259 ya\u015fanmay\u0131b – Az\u0259rbaycan h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar, forumlarda erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7697,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[90,60,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7696","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-qax-rayonu","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/vicdan.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7696","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7696"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7696\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7713,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7696\/revisions\/7713"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/7697"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7696"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7696"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7696"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}