{"id":4999,"date":"2013-03-20T02:16:47","date_gmt":"2013-03-19T22:16:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=4999"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:11:08","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:11:08","slug":"bakiya-g%c9%99lir%c9%99m-m%c9%99n%c9%99-k%c9%99d%c9%99rimi-xatirladacaq-s%c9%99h%c9%99r%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=4999","title":{"rendered":"Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lir\u0259m\u2026 m\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rimi xat\u0131rladacaq \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/moskva2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-5000\" alt=\"moskva2\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/moskva2-292x292.jpg\" width=\"292\" height=\"292\" \/><\/a>Art\u0131q d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ildir ki, Rusiyan\u0131n paytaxt\u0131nda uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259tli qalmal\u0131 oluram. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 2010-cu ild\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim, o zaman Rusiya Prezidenti yan\u0131nda D\u00f6vl\u0259t \u0130dar\u0259\u00e7ilik Akademiyas\u0131n\u0131n H\u00fcquq fak\u00fclt\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259bul olunmu\u015fdum. \u00c7ox sevinirdim, \u00e7\u00fcnki xaricd\u0259 t\u0259hsil almaq h\u0259r bir g\u0259nc kimi m\u0259nim d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q arzum olub.<br \/>\nAmma bu arzumu ya\u015famaq m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259ri d\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131ma s\u0259b\u0259b oldu, h\u0259sr\u0259t, intizar, q\u0259rib\u00e7ilik v\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131q n\u0259dir, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm bu d\u00f6rd il \u0259rzind\u0259. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r d\u0259 bir \u00e7ox \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 olmu\u015fdum, amma Moskva tamam ba\u015fqad\u0131r. Bura b\u00f6y\u00fck bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rdir, \u00e7ox mill\u0259tli bir meqapolisdir.<br \/>\nRusu, erm\u0259nisi, g\u00fcrc\u00fcs\u00fc, q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131, taciki, \u00f6zb\u0259yi v\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 mill\u0259ti var buran\u0131n. H\u0259m d\u0259 rus \u015fovinizminin tam m\u0259rk\u0259zidir. Burada ya\u015famaq, h\u0259l\u0259 strateji bir akademiyada t\u0259hsil almaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan olmad\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259r zaman i\u00e7imd\u0259 milli hissl\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan burada m\u0259yus oldu\u011fum, hirsimd\u0259n di\u015fl\u0259rimi s\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flamaq ist\u0259diyim, lakin \u0259trafdak\u0131lar m\u0259ni aciz bilm\u0259sin dey\u0259, hirsimi i\u00e7im\u0259 atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m anlar\u0131m \u00e7ox olub.<br \/>\nEl\u0259 buradak\u0131 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar\u0131n erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 oturub \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sm\u0259si, \u015f\u0259rikli bisnes qurmalar\u0131 ilk qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0259bul etm\u0259diyim c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n oldu. H\u0259tta bu bar\u0259d\u0259 ilk aylarda bir t\u0259nqidi m\u0259qal\u0259 d\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m sayt\u0131mda v\u0259 h\u0259min m\u0259qal\u0259ni erm\u0259ni \u015fovinistl\u0259ri rus dilin\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 edib \u00f6z forumlar\u0131nda v\u0259 saytlar\u0131nda d\u0259rc etmi\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259ni t\u0259hdid etmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<br \/>\nH\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Moskvadak\u0131 t\u0259hsilim bit\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6by\u00fck sevincl\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Novruz bayram\u0131n\u0131 evimizd\u0259n k\u0259narda ke\u00e7irs\u0259m d\u0259, bayramdan sonra ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda ail\u0259miz el\u0259 bayram \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259sind\u0259 olurdu. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Moskvaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nir, hans\u0131sa ad\u0259tl\u0259ri q\u0259bul edir v\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259s\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m. Art\u0131q k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 erm\u0259ni v\u0259 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131n\u0131n \u201cdostcas\u0131na\u201d s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259r\u0259k g\u0259zdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmir\u0259m, Moskvada pul \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bir-birini \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259n az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar bar\u0259d\u0259 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim b\u0259r\u0259lmir, erm\u0259nil\u0259rin ruslara yaltaqlanmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 adi yana\u015f\u0131ram, ruslar\u0131n intellektual az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lardan \u00e7\u0259kindiyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 normal bax\u0131ram.<br \/>\nMoskva m\u0259nim d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc xeyli art\u0131rd\u0131, bir \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Moskva h\u0259yat\u0131m d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 qazansam da, n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259n verdim, kiml\u0259ris\u0259 itirdim. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il Moskvada olark\u0259n yan\u0131mda olan insanlar indi m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox uzaqlardad\u0131r. O q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqdad\u0131rlar ki, n\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bilir, n\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fid\u0259 bilir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc b\u0259z\u0259n \u00e7ox aciz hiss edir\u0259m bel\u0259 anlarda. Amma acizl\u0259rin k\u00f6m\u0259yi Allahd\u0131r deyibl\u0259r, odur ki, \u0259ll\u0259rimi g\u00f6y\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b \u201cAllah qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7s\u0131n!\u201d deyir\u0259m.<br \/>\n\u018fvv\u0259lki ill\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, bu il Moskvada t\u0259hsil alma\u011f\u0131m ikiqat \u00e7\u0259tin oldu m\u0259n\u0259. \u00d6t\u0259n il H\u0259cc ziyar\u0259tind\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131qdan sonra art\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131mda bir \u00e7ox d\u00fcz\u0259li\u015fl\u0259r etdim, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qada\u011falar qoydum v\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, Allah\u0131n buyurdu\u011fu \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259r alt\u0131nda h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 davam etdirim. Moskva is\u0259 sanki \u015feytan t\u0259l\u0259sini xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259r g\u00fcn alkoqol q\u0259bul etmi\u015f insanlarla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k, \u00f6zl\u0259rini buraxm\u0131\u015f rus g\u0259ncl\u0259rinin \u0259xlaqs\u0131z davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131, \u0259xlaq\u0131ma, t\u0259rbiy\u0259m\u0259 uy\u011fun olmayan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259si v\u0259 m\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara seyrci olmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tim m\u0259ni \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Lakin yen\u0259 d\u0259 Allah\u0131n s\u0131na\u011f\u0131 kimi q\u0259bul edirdim bunlar\u0131.<br \/>\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 Moskvada h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259n i\u00e7im yan\u0131rd\u0131, ail\u0259miz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ikiqat yox, lap onqat dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m. Balaca o\u011flumun m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqda olmas\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u201ch\u0131q-h\u0131q\u201d ed\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259sini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc m\u0259ni. H\u0259r g\u00fcn internetl\u0259 o\u011flumu canl\u0131 izl\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, onun n\u0259f\u0259sini i\u00e7im\u0259 ala bilm\u0259diyimd\u0259n gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 rahat yata bilmirdim.<br \/>\nArt\u0131q bug\u00fcn Moskvada sonuncu g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u00fcr, h\u0259l\u0259lik bu il \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sonuncu&#8230; \u00c7\u00fcnki, h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n il d\u0259 Moskvaya g\u0259lm\u0259li olacam. 2014-c\u00fc ild\u0259 akademiyan\u0131 bitirib, ali t\u0259hsilli h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnas kimi bu d\u0259f\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 bird\u0259f\u0259lik qay\u0131dacam.<br \/>\nSabah Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131d\u0131ram&#8230; q\u0259rib\u0259dir, amma n\u0259s\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rliy\u0259m. H\u0259l\u0259 15-20 g\u00fcn bundan \u0259vv\u0259l Bak\u0131ya biletimi alanda sevinirdim&#8230; V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ail\u0259mizi, o\u011flumu g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259m dey\u0259 az qala u\u015faq kimi at\u0131l\u0131b-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Amma Moskvadan ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131ma bir g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f h\u0259min sevinci ya\u015faya bilmir\u0259m. S\u0259b\u0259bi bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259qiq \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 q\u0259rar verm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, amma n\u0259s\u0259 Bak\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yad g\u0259lir bug\u00fcn. \u018fvv\u0259lki Bak\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, yoxsa m\u0259nim n\u0259l\u0259rimis\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc v\u0259 ya m\u0259n\u0259 hans\u0131sa k\u0259d\u0259rimi xat\u0131rladaca\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc?! D\u0259qiq bilmir\u0259m, amma gedir\u0259m&#8230; Bak\u0131ya!<br \/>\nGedim o dal\u011fal\u0131 X\u0259z\u0259rin sahilind\u0259 bir az dayan\u0131m, x\u0259yala dal\u0131m. Deyirl\u0259r, d\u0259niz\u0259 baxmaq da ibad\u0259tdir. Odur ki, dualar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u0259ksik etm\u0259yin! Allah Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qorusun!<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAH\u0130DOV<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong> 20 Mart 2013-c\u00fc il saat 01:55, Moskva, Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Art\u0131q d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ildir ki, Rusiyan\u0131n paytaxt\u0131nda uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259tli qalmal\u0131 oluram. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 2010-cu ild\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim, o zaman Rusiya Prezidenti yan\u0131nda D\u00f6vl\u0259t \u0130dar\u0259\u00e7ilik Akademiyas\u0131n\u0131n H\u00fcquq fak\u00fclt\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259bul olunmu\u015fdum. \u00c7ox sevinirdim, \u00e7\u00fcnki&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[90,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4999","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4999","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4999"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4999\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12593,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4999\/revisions\/12593"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4999"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4999"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4999"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}