{"id":3432,"date":"2012-06-29T01:23:23","date_gmt":"2012-06-28T21:23:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3432"},"modified":"2013-12-20T10:45:16","modified_gmt":"2013-12-20T06:45:16","slug":"xosb%c9%99xt-olmaq-arzusu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3432","title":{"rendered":"XO\u015eB\u018fXT OLMAQ ARZUSU"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/WwQtcDuydwM\" height=\"488\" width=\"650\" frameborder=\"0\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>Ham\u0131 kimi m\u0259nim d\u0259<br \/>\nu\u015faql\u0131qdan arzum var.<br \/>\nXo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq arzusu!<br \/>\nU\u015faq ik\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259<br \/>\nist\u0259yirdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn<br \/>\ng\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131 olsun<br \/>\n\u00c7antan\u0131n da i\u00e7ind\u0259<br \/>\n\u00e7oxlu q\u0259l\u0259m-d\u0259ft\u0259rim,<br \/>\nr\u0259ngli karanda\u015flar\u0131m,<br \/>\nb\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259nn kitablar\u0131m,<br \/>\nb\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fagirdl\u0259r kimi<br \/>\nyem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259k alma\u011fa<br \/>\ncibimd\u0259 pulum olsun.<br \/>\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259 qald\u0131 arzum!<br \/>\nU\u015faq ik\u0259n h\u0259yatda<br \/>\nxo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bilm\u0259dim.<br \/>\nel\u0259 arzu t\u0259k qald\u0131<br \/>\nXo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq arzusu!<\/p>\n<p>B\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm, lap b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm<br \/>\nm\u0259kt\u0259bi d\u0259 bitirdim.<br \/>\nAli t\u0259hsil almaq\u00e7\u00fcn<br \/>\nuniversitet\u0259 g\u0259ldim.<br \/>\n\u0130st\u0259dim alim olum<br \/>\nm\u0259n ham\u0131dan a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131,<br \/>\nm\u0259n ham\u0131dan savadl\u0131<br \/>\nV\u0259t\u0259nim\u0259, xalq\u0131ma<br \/>\nlayiqli \u00f6vlad olum.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259tin g\u0259ldi h\u0259yat\u0131n<br \/>\nh\u0259m eni\u015fi, yoxu\u015fu,<br \/>\nh\u0259m d\u0259 kas\u0131b ail\u0259nin<br \/>\n\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k tapmaq qorxusu!<br \/>\n\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259k-\u00e7evir el\u0259di<br \/>\nh\u0259yat\u0131n s\u0131naqlar\u0131.<br \/>\nD\u00f6zd\u00fcm, he\u00e7 \u0259yilm\u0259di<br \/>\nQ\u0259ddim kims\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131nda.<br \/>\nMin c\u00fcr \u0259ziyy\u0259t il\u0259<br \/>\nt\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259, inamla<br \/>\nadlad\u0131m g\u00fcnahlar\u0131.<br \/>\nBaxd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259<br \/>\ng\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda.<br \/>\nSual verdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259.<br \/>\nXo\u015fb\u0259xts\u0259nmi, ey cavan?!<br \/>\nH\u0259yat\u0131ndan, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259n<br \/>\nraz\u0131sanm\u0131 Allah\u0131n<br \/>\ns\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyind\u0259n?!<br \/>\nH\u0259yat s\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 g\u0259ldi,<br \/>\nsanki n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131r.<br \/>\nD\u0259rdini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259,<br \/>\n\u00fcr\u0259yini a\u00e7ma\u011fa<br \/>\nkims\u0259sizlik qorxusu.<br \/>\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7in olmad\u0131<br \/>\nXo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq arzusu!<\/p>\n<p>Bu arzunun iziyl\u0259<br \/>\nk\u0259ndl\u0259r, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r g\u0259zdim.<br \/>\n\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 yol tapan<br \/>\nbir sevginin, bir yar\u0131n<br \/>\nsora\u011f\u0131yla dola\u015fd\u0131m,<br \/>\ng\u0259zdim, g\u0259zdim, \u00e7ox g\u0259zdim.<br \/>\nTapd\u0131m m\u0259n ist\u0259y\u0259ni,<br \/>\nq\u0259lbimi verdim ona.<br \/>\n\u00fcr\u0259yimiz bir idi,<br \/>\ns\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 bir oldu<br \/>\ndeyirdi m\u0259n dey\u0259ni.<br \/>\nM\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s bir sevginin<br \/>\nquca\u011f\u0131na at\u0131ld\u0131q.<br \/>\nG\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin<br \/>\nqoynunda yat\u0131b qald\u0131q.<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n<br \/>\n\u0259n b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r insan\u0131,<br \/>\nAllah\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi<br \/>\nt\u0259k sevgi pay\u0131 sand\u0131q.<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u0259l idi birlikd\u0259<br \/>\nke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r saat, h\u0259r an<br \/>\nHe\u00e7 bilm\u0259zdik n\u0259 vaxtsa<br \/>\nT\u0259rsin\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r d\u00f6vran.<br \/>\nSevgi d\u00f6n\u00fcb nifr\u0259t\u0259<br \/>\nPar\u00e7alayar hissl\u0259ri<br \/>\n\u018fn \u00fclvi, \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s<br \/>\no saf xatir\u0259l\u0259ri.<br \/>\nUnudub bir anda biz<br \/>\nd\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259rik.<br \/>\n\u018fn \u00e7irkin, \u0259n nalayiq<br \/>\ns\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259, k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259<br \/>\nbir-birini al\u00e7ald\u0131b<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259rik.<br \/>\nBunun n\u0259yi sevgidir?!<br \/>\nBunun n\u0259yi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t?!<br \/>\nHan\u0131 veril\u0259n v\u0259dl\u0259r?!<br \/>\nN\u0259 tez g\u0259ldi x\u0259yan\u0259t?!<br \/>\nUnuduldu xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259r,<br \/>\nyaz\u0131lan o s\u0259tirl\u0259r<br \/>\ne\u015fqinin t\u0259siriyl\u0259<br \/>\nyaranan o \u015feirl\u0259r.<br \/>\nHam\u0131s\u0131 he\u00e7di dem\u0259k?!<br \/>\nB\u0259s biz indi neyn\u0259y\u0259k?!<br \/>\nNifr\u0259ti q\u0259lbimizd\u0259<br \/>\nya\u015fad\u0131b sona q\u0259d\u0259r<br \/>\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc sevgisiz<br \/>\nbitirib, \u00f6l\u00fcb ged\u0259k?!<br \/>\nM\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m!<br \/>\nKims\u0259siz itl\u0259r kimi<br \/>\ngec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz kor-pe\u015fman<br \/>\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 dola\u015fan<br \/>\nkims\u0259siz \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r kimi<br \/>\nYa\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m!<br \/>\nS\u0259nsiz, yetiml\u0259r kimi!<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r-ax\u015fam<br \/>\nal\u0131\u015f\u0131b, od t\u0259k yan\u0131r<br \/>\nS\u0259nsiz qalmaq qorxusu!<br \/>\nU\u015faql\u0131qdan bug\u00fcn\u0259<br \/>\nqoruyub saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m<br \/>\nBir arzum var q\u0259lbimd\u0259<br \/>\n\u0130ndi s\u0259nd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r<br \/>\nXo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq arzusu!<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong> 28 \u0130yun 2012-ci il, saat 22:20, Domodedovo aeroportu, Moskva, Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ham\u0131 kimi m\u0259nim d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan arzum var. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq arzusu! U\u015faq ik\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ist\u0259yirdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131 olsun \u00c7antan\u0131n da i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7oxlu q\u0259l\u0259m-d\u0259ft\u0259rim, r\u0259ngli karanda\u015flar\u0131m, b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259nn kitablar\u0131m, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fagirdl\u0259r&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3432","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-seirlrim"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3432","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3432"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3432\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3432"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3432"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3432"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}