{"id":3316,"date":"2012-05-17T19:46:34","date_gmt":"2012-05-17T15:46:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3316"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:11:09","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:11:09","slug":"m%c9%99ni-aglatdin-%c9%99hm%c9%99d","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3316","title":{"rendered":"\u00abM\u0259ni a\u011flatd\u0131n, \u018fhm\u0259d\u00bb"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/cevahir.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-4283\" alt=\"cevahir\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/cevahir.jpg\" width=\"292\" height=\"292\" \/><\/a>A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259\u00a0 \u015feir dinl\u0259yib k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259yim yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir. \u018fksin\u0259, hans\u0131sa \u015feiri dinl\u0259yib \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fm\u0259yimi, aqeressivl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yimi \u00e7ox xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. \u018fg\u0259r dinl\u0259dikl\u0259rim\u0259 d\u0259 \u015feir dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcrs\u0259\u2026 \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u015fair adland\u0131ran kims\u0259l\u0259rin insan\u0131n t\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259n, da\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yi biraz da da\u015fla\u015fd\u0131ran, codla\u015fd\u0131ran, sad\u0259c\u0259 qafiy\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131ndan ibar\u0259t misralar\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n h\u0259min \u015fair\u0259 \u00fcnvanlanan bir sual ke\u00e7ib<\/strong>: \u00abM\u0259n yazm\u0131ram, \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m, s\u0259n niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 z\u00fclm edib, Mo\u015fu kimi xo\u015fb\u0259xtliy\u0259 qafiy\u0259 axtar\u0131rsan\u00bb? X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t g\u0259nc \u015fairl\u0259rd\u0259n gedir\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni, h\u0259dsiz duy\u011fusall\u0131qda ittiham ed\u0259nl\u0259r, \u00ab\u015feir el\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 insan\u0131 k\u00f6vr\u0259ltm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil d\u0259\u00bb-deyib, k\u00f6vr\u0259kliyim\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 bir istehza\u00a0 il\u0259 dodaqalt\u0131 q\u0131m\u0131\u015fanlar da olacaq. He\u00e7 umurumda da deyil. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcz bil\u0259rsiniz, amma m\u0259n bir \u015feyi bilir\u0259m; \u0259n da\u015f\u00fcr\u0259k insan\u0131n bel\u0259 ruhi v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti olur. H\u0259min ruhu v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 onun h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flamas\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yini bo\u015faltmas\u0131 normal hald\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259r bir normal insan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, bel\u0259 ruhi v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259ri ya\u015fay\u0131r. Bir g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feir, \u00fcst\u0259g\u0259l d\u0259 musiqi bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti tarazlay\u0131r. D\u00fcn\u0259n komp\u00fcter arxas\u0131nda oturub, q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n i\u015f \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259sind\u0259 oldu\u011fum bir vaxtda q\u0259fild\u0259n bel\u0259 hal\u0131n m\u0259ni yaxalayac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. Amma bu ba\u015f verdi. \u00abTRT Avaz-da\u00bb qonaq olan g\u0259nc \u015fair, \u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidovun \u00abAna\u00bb \u015feirini dinl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 hec c\u00fcr\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 hakim k\u0259sil\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 titr\u0259d\u0259n o misralar\u0131 he\u00e7 sona q\u0259d\u0259r e\u015fid\u0259 d\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcm o misralar\u0131 e\u015fidilm\u0259z etdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim bu hal\u0131ma bayaq dediyim kimi, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 kinay\u0259 ed\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 oldu, amma ana itkisini ya\u015fay\u0131b, bu itkinin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u0259zdir\u0259nl\u0259rin hal\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259l\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 yet\u0259r. \u015eeir m\u0259ni ona g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ltdi ki, s\u0259mimiydi, t\u0259bii, isti v\u0259 s\u0131caq idi. \u015eeir m\u0259ni ona g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ltdi ki, ruhuma \u00e7ox yax\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131. Ax\u0131 insan ruhu s\u0259mimi olan\u0131 q\u0259bul edir, s\u0259mimi olandan h\u0259y\u0259canlan\u0131r. \u00abG\u00f6zd\u0259n ya\u015f \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259k yanmasa\u00bb\u2026 Orda s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t yoxdursa, ruhi m\u00fcvazin\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259z. M\u0259ni a\u011fladan, m\u0259ni dill\u0259ndir\u0259n v\u0259 m\u0259ni kamp\u00fcter arxas\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tir\u0259n, bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 yazd\u0131ran da el\u0259 \u015feird\u0259n do\u011fan s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t idi\u2026 S\u0259mimiyy\u0259t atmasferind\u0259 bo\u011fuldu\u011fum, n\u0259f\u0259s ala bilm\u0259diym bu c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 m\u0259ni duy\u011fuland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 \u00ab\u00e7ox sa\u011f\u00bb d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7oxdan\u0131yd\u0131, \u015feird\u0259n bel\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdim, bug\u00fcn m\u0259ni a\u011flatd\u0131n, \u018fhm\u0259d! \u00dcr\u0259yin\u0259, ruhuna, barmaqlar\u0131na sa\u011fl\u0131q!<\/p>\n<p><strong>C\u0259vahir S\u0259limq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&#8220;M\u0259rk\u0259z&#8221; q\u0259zeti, 18 May 2012-ci il<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259\u00a0 \u015feir dinl\u0259yib k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259yim yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir. \u018fksin\u0259, hans\u0131sa \u015feiri dinl\u0259yib \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fm\u0259yimi, aqeressivl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yimi \u00e7ox xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. \u018fg\u0259r dinl\u0259dikl\u0259rim\u0259 d\u0259 \u015feir dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcrs\u0259\u2026 \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u015fair adland\u0131ran kims\u0259l\u0259rin insan\u0131n t\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259n,&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4283,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[90,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3316","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/cevahir.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3316","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3316"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3316\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12598,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3316\/revisions\/12598"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4283"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3316"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3316"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3316"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}