{"id":3048,"date":"2012-02-26T21:53:09","date_gmt":"2012-02-26T17:53:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3048"},"modified":"2012-02-26T22:08:20","modified_gmt":"2012-02-26T18:08:20","slug":"s%c9%99n%c9%99-m%c9%99ktub-yaziram","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=3048","title":{"rendered":"S\u018fN\u018f M\u018fKTUB YAZIRAM"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Adi gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biridir
\nOturmu\u015fam t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na.
\nSaat da bir\u0259 qal\u0131b, birdir
\ns\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131ram.
\nBay\u0131rda yen\u0259 qar ya\u011f\u0131r
\nYava\u015f-yava\u015f
\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r yan
\na\u011f \u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k.
\nYuxum da g\u0259lmir n\u0259s\u0259
\n\u00d6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yazma\u011fa
\nBug\u00fcn d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 yazmal\u0131yam s\u0259n\u0259
\n\u018fvv\u0259la deyim ki, \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131ram
\nBuralar \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131r m\u0259ni
\nT\u0259k s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131
\nN\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7diyimi
\nHans\u0131 odun-alovun i\u00e7ind\u0259n
\nHans\u0131 qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131b
\nYen\u0259 sa\u011f-salamat s\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc
\nBunlar\u0131 yaz\u0131b vaxt\u0131n\u0131 almay\u0131m.
\nOnsuz da \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi.
\nS\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaza-yaza
\ns\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram.
\nBilir\u0259m s\u0259n d\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131rsan m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 yatm\u0131rsan gec\u0259l\u0259r
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla, \u0259g\u0259r s\u0259ni intizarda saxlad\u0131msa
\nS\u0259nin o g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yollarda qoydumsa
\nNeyn\u0259yim ax\u0131?!
\nBu da m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131md\u0131r.
\nDaima yollarda, bir g\u00fcn burda
\nSabahsa Allah bilir haralarda.
\nHarada olsam da, \u00fcr\u0259yim s\u0259nin yan\u0131ndad\u0131r
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz \u015f\u0259klini g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m
\nY\u0259qin incim\u0259zs\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n.
\nTez-tez \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b \u015f\u0259klin\u0259 bax\u0131ram
\nDar\u0131xanda, t\u0259k qalanda, k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259
\nB\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 b\u0259rk qorxanda
\n\u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b tez s\u0259nin o \u015f\u0259klin\u0259 bax\u0131ram
\n\u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n
\n\u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m dodaqlar\u0131ndan
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub ba\u011fr\u0131ma bas\u0131ram s\u0259ni.
\n\u0130nan ki, xeyiri d\u0259 olur
\nDemi\u015f\u0259m ax\u0131
\ns\u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s insansan
\nAllahdan sevgi pay\u0131msan.
\nS\u0259ni sevm\u0259k sanki bir ibad\u0259tdir
\ns\u0259ni anmaq Allah\u0131 sevm\u0259kdir
\ns\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmaq…
\ng\u00fcnah da olsa dey\u0259c\u0259m!
\ns\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmaq…
\nsanki K\u0259b\u0259nin divarlar\u0131na baxmaqd\u0131r
\nSevgilim!
\nG\u00fcc verirs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259,
\nbir anda i\u00e7im\u0259 ilahi bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 dolur
\nqorxmuram he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n
\nm\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nd\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259rimd\u0259n, he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n!
\nH\u0259m d\u0259 inam\u0131m art\u0131r
\ninan\u0131ram ki, yen\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259m,
\ns\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutacam,
\ndodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u0259c\u0259m.
\nEhh, bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tindir indi
\nbu d\u0259qiq\u0259 bunlar\u0131 xat\u0131rlamaq?!
\nKa\u015f ki, indi yan\u0131mda olard\u0131n m\u0259nim
\no g\u00fcc\u00fc, o inam\u0131 birba\u015fa s\u0259nd\u0259n alard\u0131m
\nM\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u0259l sevgilim!
\nKa\u015f ki, bu s\u0259tirl\u0259ri
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri
\nburadan yazmazd\u0131m.
\ns\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131nda dayan\u0131b
\n\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b
\ns\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dey\u0259rdim.
\ns\u0259n d\u0259 bir az sevincli,
\nbir az da utancaq t\u0259rzd\u0259
\nm\u0259n\u0259 baxard\u0131n.
\n\u00d6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdik!
\nDodaqlar\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259tind\u0259n
\ns\u0259n d\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131b yanard\u0131n.
\nb\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlayard\u0131n m\u0259ni
\nsar\u0131lard\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259!
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 sevgind\u0259n \u015fair olub
\ns\u0259n\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r qo\u015fard\u0131m
\nYenid\u0259n a\u015fiq olard\u0131m
\nvurulard\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259!<\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong>
\n 28 Fevral 2012-ci il saat 01:25, Moskva, Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Adi gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biridir Oturmu\u015fam t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na. Saat da bir\u0259 qal\u0131b, birdir s\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131ram. Bay\u0131rda yen\u0259 qar ya\u011f\u0131r Yava\u015f-yava\u015f S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r yan a\u011f \u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k. Yuxum da g\u0259lmir n\u0259s\u0259 \u00d6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3049,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3048","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-seirlrim"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/seir.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3048","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3048"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3048\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3049"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3048"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3048"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3048"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}