{"id":2916,"date":"2012-01-15T18:40:42","date_gmt":"2012-01-15T14:40:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2916"},"modified":"2012-01-16T04:39:30","modified_gmt":"2012-01-16T00:39:30","slug":"bu-gec%c9%99-m%c9%99n-seir-yaza-bilmir%c9%99m","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2916","title":{"rendered":"BU GEC\u018f M\u018fN \u015eE\u0130R YAZA B\u0130LM\u0130R\u018fM"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-2917\" title=\"qelem_kagiz\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"550\" height=\"369\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz.jpg 550w, https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz-250x167.jpg 250w, https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz-150x100.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz-190x127.jpg 190w, https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz-60x40.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px\" \/><\/a>Yen\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m, a\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z v\u0259 m\u0259n<br \/>\nt\u0259k qalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q.<br \/>\nYapa yaln\u0131z bir otaqda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fck<br \/>\nka\u011f\u0131z q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 bax\u0131r, q\u0259l\u0259ms\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259<br \/>\nm\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram.<br \/>\nN\u0259 is\u0259 yazmal\u0131yam bu gec\u0259,<br \/>\nsevgid\u0259n, hissl\u0259rimd\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n<br \/>\nn\u0259s\u0259 yazmal\u0131yam, amma n\u0259d\u0259n, bilmir\u0259m<br \/>\nBu gec\u0259 m\u0259n \u015feir yaza bilmir\u0259m.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>H\u0259r \u015feyi yazmaq da olmur ka\u011f\u0131za<br \/>\n\u0130lk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc, tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131<br \/>\nilk \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc.<br \/>\ngec\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yaz\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131<br \/>\nilk d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoyub a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\n\u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 tutub qaranl\u0131q Bak\u0131 gec\u0259sind\u0259<br \/>\nham\u0131dan gizl\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k o\u011frun-o\u011frun g\u0259zm\u0259yimizi<br \/>\nDaha n\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131q birlikd\u0259, bilmir\u0259m<br \/>\nBu gec\u0259 m\u0259n \u015feir yaza bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>Bilmir\u0259m s\u0259nin ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kim, ya \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yim<br \/>\nad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259m, utanarsanm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?!<br \/>\nBilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 opd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc yaz\u0131m, ya yazmay\u0131m<br \/>\nBunu yazsam, m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131zarsanm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?!<br \/>\nS\u0259ninl\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259k qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131,<br \/>\nbir-birimiz\u0259 d\u0259lil\u0259r kimi sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131<br \/>\nBilmir\u0259m yaz\u0131m, ya yazmay\u0131m<br \/>\nilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t na\u011f\u0131l\u0131m\u0131z\u0131?!<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 olanlar, ya\u015fananlar<br \/>\nbir na\u011f\u0131l yox, reall\u0131qd\u0131r bilmir\u0259m<br \/>\nBu gec\u0259 m\u0259n \u015feir yaza bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>\u00dcr\u0259yim daha c\u0259sar\u0259tlidir q\u0259l\u0259mimd\u0259n<br \/>\nDeyir yaz sevgimizd\u0259n,<br \/>\ns\u0259n\u0259 olan hissl\u0259rimd\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n.<br \/>\nH\u0259r \u015feyi oldu\u011fu kimi yazma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259yir,<br \/>\n\u00fcr\u0259yim s\u0259ni ist\u0259yir, \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmir m\u0259nd\u0259n.<br \/>\nBilmir\u0259m neyn\u0259yim.<br \/>\nAx\u0131 biz bunlar\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q<br \/>\nsevmi\u015fik bir-birimizi.<br \/>\nAx\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 deyirs\u0259n ki,<br \/>\nm\u0259n s\u0259nin Allahdan sevgi pay\u0131nam.<br \/>\nAx\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 etiraf edirs\u0259n ki,<br \/>\nm\u0259nim yan\u0131mda xo\u015fdur s\u0259n\u0259.<br \/>\nXo\u015f ke\u00e7ir g\u00fcnl\u0259rimiz birlikd\u0259<br \/>\nUnuduruq d\u0259rdi-s\u0259ri, bizi \u00fcz\u0259nl\u0259ri<br \/>\nancaq ikimiz oluruq, bir d\u0259<br \/>\nbu sevgiy\u0259 \u015fahid olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n<br \/>\nmasan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n<br \/>\no a\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z v\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m<br \/>\ndeyir, \u018fhm\u0259d, otur yaz!<br \/>\nLap ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 itirmi\u015f\u0259m<br \/>\nqalm\u0131\u015fam iki da\u015f aras\u0131nda<br \/>\nN\u0259 eyl\u0259yim bilmir\u0259m<br \/>\nYox! Bug\u00fcn al\u0131nmad\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259<br \/>\nBu gec\u0259 m\u0259n \u015feir yaza bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAH\u0130DOV<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong> 15 Yanvar 2012-ci il, 18:05, Bak\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/player.vimeo.com\/video\/35113018?title=0&amp;byline=0&amp;portrait=0&amp;autoplay=1\" width=\"550\" height=\"413\" frameborder=\"0\" webkitAllowFullScreen mozallowfullscreen allowFullScreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yen\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m, a\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z v\u0259 m\u0259n t\u0259k qalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Yapa yaln\u0131z bir otaqda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fck ka\u011f\u0131z q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 bax\u0131r, q\u0259l\u0259ms\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. N\u0259 is\u0259 yazmal\u0131yam bu gec\u0259, sevgid\u0259n,&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2917,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2916","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-seirlrim"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/qelem_kagiz.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2916","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2916"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2916\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2917"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2916"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2916"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2916"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}