{"id":2892,"date":"2012-01-07T03:51:37","date_gmt":"2012-01-06T23:51:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2892"},"modified":"2012-01-09T03:25:40","modified_gmt":"2012-01-08T23:25:40","slug":"bu-gec%c9%99-h%c9%99sr%c9%99td%c9%99n-danismayacam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2892","title":{"rendered":"BU GEC\u018f H\u018fSR\u018fTD\u018fN DANI\u015eMAYACAM"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Bug\u00fcn hal\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fma m\u0259nd\u0259n,
\n\u00e7ox \u00fczg\u00fcn\u0259m.
\nN\u0259s\u0259 birt\u0259h\u0259r olmu\u015fam gec\u0259 vaxt\u0131,
\nn\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 geri qaytarmaq,
\nn\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 bir daha ya\u015famaq,
\nn\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 unutmaq ist\u0259yir,
\n\u0259ksin\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 yadda\u015f\u0131mda
\nh\u0259kk etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m bir daha ya\u015fayam
\ns\u0259ninl\u0259 ilk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m h\u0259min o hissl\u0259ri,
\no h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131, t\u0259lat\u00fcm\u00fc
\nbir daha ke\u00e7irim.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131m
\nsabaha kimi.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n seyr etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259nin h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kim
\nS\u0259nin o n\u0259f\u0259sini \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 evimiz\u0259 apar\u0131m.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 kimi o n\u0259f\u0259sinl\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131m.
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m o z\u0259rif \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 toxunum
\n\u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayan\u0131b, g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 bax\u0131b
\ns\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rimi
\n\u0259ll\u0259rimin toxunu\u015fu il\u0259 deyim s\u0259n\u0259.
\nDeyim ki, s\u0259ni ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nDeyim ki, s\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m,
\n\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n, \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n
\n\u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

\u018flimd\u0259 olsayd\u0131,
\ns\u0259ninl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259ri
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi geri qaytarard\u0131m.
\nS\u0259nin o bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, o g\u00f6zl\u0259rini,
\n\u201cS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc,
\nel\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc
\ngeri qaytarard\u0131m.
\nBir d\u0259 zaman\u0131,
\n\u00e7\u00fcnki bir zamanlar s\u0259n var idin,
\ns\u0259nin sevgin var idi,
\no sevginl\u0259 zaman\u0131 durdurard\u0131n,
\no bax\u0131\u015f\u0131nla h\u0259yat donard\u0131 bir anl\u0131q,
\no s\u0259sinl\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259t lal olard\u0131,
\no gedi\u015finl\u0259…
\nyox!
\nBu gec\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmayacam!
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131qdan s\u00f6z a\u00e7mayacam!
\nS\u0259n olmasan da,
\ns\u0259nin yoxlu\u011funu xat\u0131rlamayacam!
\nS\u0259n ya\u015famasan da, s\u0259sin g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259
\nVar olmasan da, n\u0259f\u0259sin getm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259,
\nm\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259b\u0259dis\u0259n, m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015fay\u0131rsan
\nm\u0259nim ruhumda, m\u0259nim q\u0259lbimd\u0259s\u0259n
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim d\u0259 s\u0259n,
\nq\u0259lbim d\u0259 s\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAH\u0130DOV<\/strong>
\n 07 Yanvar 2012-ci il, 03:35, Bak\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan<\/strong><\/p>\n