{"id":2765,"date":"2011-11-13T03:44:36","date_gmt":"2011-11-12T23:44:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2765"},"modified":"2011-11-13T03:46:07","modified_gmt":"2011-11-12T23:46:07","slug":"bagisla-m%c9%99ni","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2765","title":{"rendered":"BA\u011eI\u015eLA M\u018fN\u0130"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/poems1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-2767\" title=\"poems\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/poems1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"175\" height=\"181\" \/><\/a>Bug\u00fcn ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, \u00e7iskinli bir g\u00fcn idi<br \/>\nK\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sir, g\u00f6yd\u0259n yer\u0259 d\u0259rd, q\u0259m ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, \u00e7iskinli bir g\u00fcnd\u0259<br \/>\nG\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131 bilirdim,<br \/>\nc\u0259zam\u0131 da \u00e7oxdan g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim.<!--more--><br \/>\nOturduq, s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik,<br \/>\n\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutmaq ist\u0259dim<br \/>\nAmma qorxdum&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsanm\u0131 dey\u0259 fikr\u0259 dald\u0131m<br \/>\nS\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi<br \/>\nyen\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131n<br \/>\nBaxd\u0131qca g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259<br \/>\nm\u0259ni nec\u0259 sevdiyini duyurdum<br \/>\nAmma yen\u0259 utan\u0131rd\u0131m,<br \/>\n\u00e7ox utan\u0131rd\u0131m!<br \/>\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsanm\u0131 dey\u0259 fikr\u0259 dal\u0131rd\u0131m<br \/>\nS\u0259n is\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\nyen\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sliyini qoruyurdun<br \/>\n\u018fyilmirdin qar\u015f\u0131mda!<br \/>\nbu x\u0259yan\u0259t\u0259 yenilm\u0259diyini<br \/>\ng\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u0259n is\u0259 s\u0259ni yen\u0259 d\u0259 sevdiyimi<br \/>\ndem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim&#8230;<br \/>\namma utan\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 qorxurdum!<br \/>\nBu q\u0259d\u0259r x\u0259yan\u0259td\u0259n sonra nec\u0259?!<br \/>\nNec\u0259 deyim ax\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259<br \/>\n\u201cSevir\u0259m\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sini?!<br \/>\nS\u0259n is\u0259 m\u0259ni diri-diri \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcn&#8230;<br \/>\nsusma\u011f\u0131nla&#8230;<br \/>\nhe\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi davranma\u011f\u0131nla.<br \/>\nAx\u0131 m\u0259n bilir\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\ngec\u0259l\u0259r nec\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kdiyini<br \/>\nm\u0259nim x\u0259yan\u0259timi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb<br \/>\nu\u015faq t\u0259k a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\nh\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131tma\u011f\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\nham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilir\u0259m.<br \/>\nN\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259yin\u0259 ehtiyac yoxdur he\u00e7.<br \/>\nAmma yen\u0259 yox!<br \/>\nDen\u0259n!<br \/>\nQoy m\u0259n c\u0259zam\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kim<br \/>\nNec\u0259 bir x\u0259yan\u0259t\u0259 imza atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilim<br \/>\nr\u00fcsvay olum s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda,<br \/>\nutan\u0131m, yer\u0259 girim!<br \/>\nNifr\u0259t edir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259!<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m!<br \/>\nAx\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 dediyim s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259,<br \/>\nverdiyim v\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259<br \/>\n\u0259m\u0259l ed\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m<br \/>\nhe\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259!<br \/>\nSevgilim, ax\u0131 s\u0259ni&#8230;<br \/>\nN\u0259 is\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\ndilim d\u0259 g\u0259lmir dem\u0259y\u0259<br \/>\nAx\u0131 s\u0259ni&#8230;<br \/>\nba\u015fqas\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z etmi\u015f\u0259m, \u0259zizim?!<br \/>\nS\u0259n niy\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmayasan ax\u0131?!<br \/>\nS\u0259n bu x\u0259yan\u0259t\u0259<br \/>\ns\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsizliy\u0259<br \/>\ns\u0259n bu naki\u015filiy\u0259<br \/>\nnec\u0259 susqun dayana bil\u0259rs\u0259n ax\u0131?!<br \/>\nYox, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur s\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f!<br \/>\nT\u00f6k ortaya kinivi, nifr\u0259tivi<br \/>\nT\u00fcp\u00fcr \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, vur m\u0259ni<br \/>\nS\u00f6y m\u0259ni, t\u0259hqir et.<br \/>\nYox! M\u0259n dinm\u0259r\u0259m<br \/>\nCavab qaytarmaram!<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnki, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz add\u0131m atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilir\u0259m!<br \/>\nHe\u00e7 \u0259fv d\u0259 dil\u0259mir\u0259m!<br \/>\nAncaq \u00f6l\u00fcm dil\u0259yir\u0259m&#8230; Allahdan<br \/>\nAmma s\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rsan!<br \/>\nNiy\u0259 ax\u0131?!<br \/>\nNiy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259ss\u0259n?!<br \/>\nNiy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r sevirs\u0259n m\u0259ni?!<br \/>\nAx\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t etdim<br \/>\nbug\u00fcn bir x\u0259yan\u0259t, bir yalan<br \/>\nsabah ikinci, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc v\u0259 yen\u0259 davam<br \/>\nS\u0259n ax\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 layiq deyils\u0259n<br \/>\ns\u0259n daha saf v\u0259 t\u0259miz sevgiy\u0259 layiqdin!<br \/>\nDaha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma!<br \/>\nM\u0259n dedim h\u0259r \u015feyi<br \/>\ns\u0259nin yerin\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 nifr\u0259t etdim, t\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fcm \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259<br \/>\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 m\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n<br \/>\n\u0259n x\u0259yan\u0259tkar adam\u0131ym\u0131\u015fam.<br \/>\n\u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t etdims\u0259,<br \/>\nm\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 adam ola bilm\u0259r\u0259m!<br \/>\nM\u0259n ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m!<br \/>\nYa s\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcr m\u0259ni,<br \/>\nya da \u00f6z\u00fcm q\u0259sd edim can\u0131ma!<br \/>\nOnsuz da bezmi\u015f\u0259m, yorulmu\u015fam<br \/>\ns\u0259nin bu susqun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan<br \/>\nsusa-susa \u201cNec\u0259 etdin bunu?!\u201d dem\u0259yind\u0259n<br \/>\nNifr\u0259t edir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259<br \/>\nBitir bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nson d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0131x \u0259limi<br \/>\nv\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x get!<br \/>\nGet!<br \/>\nv\u0259 bir daha axtarma m\u0259ni!<br \/>\nM\u0259n yoxam!<br \/>\nM\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m!<br \/>\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni!<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAH\u0130DOV<br \/>\n13 Noyabr 2011-ci il, saat 03:35, Bak\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bug\u00fcn ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, \u00e7iskinli bir g\u00fcn idi K\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sir, g\u00f6yd\u0259n yer\u0259 d\u0259rd, q\u0259m ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, \u00e7iskinli bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 G\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131 bilirdim, c\u0259zam\u0131 da \u00e7oxdan g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2765","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-seirlrim"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2765","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2765"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2765\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2765"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2765"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2765"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}