{"id":2289,"date":"2011-07-25T16:23:45","date_gmt":"2011-07-25T12:23:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2289"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:11:10","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:11:10","slug":"intihar-m%c9%99d%c9%99niyy%c9%99ti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2289","title":{"rendered":"\u0130NT\u0130HAR M\u018fD\u018fN\u0130YY\u018fT\u0130"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad13.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-2368\" title=\"ahmad\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad13.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"100\" height=\"80\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad13.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad13-60x48.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 100px) 100vw, 100px\" \/><\/a>&#8230;\u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k adam kimi \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n<\/strong><br \/>\nBilmir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259ndir, amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim olub. H\u0259yatdan bezmi\u015f\u0259m, yoxsa i\u015fl\u0259rim d\u00fcz g\u0259tirm\u0259yib v\u0259 ya bu d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, n\u0259dirs\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m b\u00fc kainat\u0131 t\u0259rk edim, bu insanlardan, bu t\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259n, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131m. <!--more-->Bilmir\u0259m n\u0259yini b\u0259y\u0259nmir\u0259m bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n: u\u015faqlar\u0131 atas\u0131z-anas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, yoxsa ill\u0259rdir \u00f6vlad arzusund\u0259 olan valideynl\u0259ri sonsuz ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259?!<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nternetd\u0259, m\u0259tbuatda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 insanlar\u0131n intihar faktlar\u0131 mara\u011f\u0131ma s\u0259b\u0259b olub. Bu sah\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 xaricd\u0259ki t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259d\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259nirik. Xaricd\u0259 insanlar d\u0259rman i\u00e7m\u0259kl\u0259 v\u0259 ya x\u00fcsusi klinikalarda yat\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131lmaqla d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015firl\u0259r. Bizd\u0259 n\u0259 c\u00fcrd\u00fcr? Bir g\u00fcn e\u015fidirs\u0259n ki, hans\u0131sa q\u0131z Q\u0131z Qalas\u0131ndan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 atmaq ist\u0259yir. V\u0259 ya kims\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259niz\u0259 at\u0131b. Bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 damarlar\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fray\u0131b. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, bu siyah\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox uzatmaq olar. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn intihar faktlar\u0131nda bir h\u00fczn, d\u0259rd, b\u0259la elementl\u0259ri duyulmaqdad\u0131r.<br \/>\n\u018f\u015f\u015fi, \u0259g\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 bir qurtulu\u015f, xilas kimi bax\u0131r\u0131qsa, onda g\u0259lin g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 intihar ed\u0259k, qurtulaq bu \u0259zabl\u0131 d\u00fcnyadan. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn fikirl\u0259\u015fdiyim g\u00f6z\u0259l intihar d\u00fcsturlar\u0131ndan bir-ne\u00e7\u0259sini sizl\u0259rl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, m\u0259n nec\u0259 intihar etm\u0259k v\u0259 ya \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim?!<br \/>\nMaraql\u0131 suald\u0131r. \u0130st\u0259rdim sevdiyim br xan\u0131m\u0131n d\u0259rdind\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm. \u0130st\u0259rdim ki, V\u0259t\u0259n u\u011frunda \u015f\u0259hid olum. \u0130st\u0259rdim ki, g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm&#8230; lap Anar M\u0259mm\u0259dxanl\u0131 kimi. \u0130st\u0259rdim ki, son anlar\u0131m, son n\u0259f\u0259sim sevinc i\u00e7ind\u0259 ke\u00e7sin, insanlar\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda xo\u015f t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcratlarla qala bilim. Qoy dem\u0259sinl\u0259r ki, filank\u0259s \u00f6ld\u00fc, onu itirdik. Desinl\u0259r ki, \u018fhm\u0259d d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi, s\u00f6z\u00fcn \u0259sl m\u0259nas\u0131nda d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Daha g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fcnyaya \u2013 yalan\u0131n, iki\u00fczl\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcn, x\u0259yan\u0259tin, dedi-qodunun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00fcnyaya d\u0259yi\u015fdi \u018fhm\u0259d bizi. Qoy \u018fhm\u0259din son s\u00f6zl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlayanda dostlar\u0131m\u0131n, yax\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131 qa\u00e7s\u0131n, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flamas\u0131n he\u00e7 kim. Qoy m\u0259nim yoxlu\u011fumdan insanlar qazans\u0131n, V\u0259t\u0259n qazans\u0131n. Bundan \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli, bundan g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00f6l\u00fcm ola bil\u0259rmi, sizc\u0259?! V\u0259t\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getm\u0259k, d\u00f6vl\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getm\u0259k, xalq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getm\u0259k. Sad\u0259c\u0259 getm\u0259k, \u00f6lm\u0259k yox!<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u0259 qalsa, indi diriyk\u0259n olmayan insanlar\u0131m\u0131z da \u00e7oxdur. Qeyri-s\u0259mimiliyi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi se\u00e7\u0259n insanlar\u0131m\u0131z var. Onlar he\u00e7 do\u011fulmay\u0131blar zat\u0259n, ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir m\u00f6vcud olsalar bel\u0259. M\u0259n m\u0259hz buc\u00fcr insanlardan uzaqla\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyadan getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<br \/>\nT\u0259kc\u0259 bir \u015fey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259nir\u0259m. Sevdiyim insanlardan ayr\u0131 qalaca\u011f\u0131ma, m\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 olan insanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 olsun. Onsuz da gec-tez ham\u0131 m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; d\u00fcnyan\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; amma \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k!<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAHIDOV<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong> ahmad@www.shahidov.com<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8230;\u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k adam kimi \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n Bilmir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259ndir, amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim olub. H\u0259yatdan bezmi\u015f\u0259m, yoxsa i\u015fl\u0259rim d\u00fcz g\u0259tirm\u0259yib v\u0259 ya bu d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, n\u0259dirs\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m b\u00fc&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2368,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[90,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2289","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad13.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2289","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2289"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2289\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12609,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2289\/revisions\/12609"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2368"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2289"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2289"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2289"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}