{"id":2178,"date":"2011-04-23T22:40:00","date_gmt":"2011-04-23T18:40:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2178"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:11:31","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:11:31","slug":"v%c9%99t%c9%99n%c9%99-g%c9%99l%c9%99nd%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2178","title":{"rendered":"V\u018fT\u018fN\u018f G\u018fL\u018fND\u018f…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca daha yax\u0131ndan ba\u011flan\u0131ram Az\u0259rbaycana…<\/strong>
\nSon 4-5 ild\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m el\u0259 g\u0259tirib ki, vaxt\u0131m\u0131n \u0259sas hiss\u0259nini V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n k\u0259narda ke\u00e7irm\u0259li oluram. \u018fsas\u0259n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif elm v\u0259 t\u0259hsil m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259l\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n d\u0259v\u0259t olundu\u011fum beyn\u0259lxalq konfrans v\u0259 sempozyumlarda i\u015ftirak\u0131m, Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131 Prezidenti yan\u0131nda D\u00f6vl\u0259t \u0130dar\u0259\u00e7iliyi Akademiyas\u0131nda t\u0259hsil alma\u011fm v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t sad\u0259c\u0259 istirah\u0259t etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r etm\u0259yim vaxt\u0131m\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck hiss\u0259sinin xaricd\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r daha \u00e7ox h\u0259v\u0259s g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259m d\u0259, sonradan Az\u0259rbaycan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdim. G\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k el\u0259 bu ilin \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259rini…<\/p>\n

Fevral ay\u0131n\u0131n 21-d\u0259 Moskvada d\u0259rsl\u0259rim ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Qiyabi t\u0259hsil ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan h\u0259r il 50 g\u00fcn Moskvada olmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259y\u0259m. Odur ki, Fevral ay\u0131n\u0131n 19-da Moskvaya u\u00e7dum. Akademiyan\u0131n mehmanxanas\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015fdim, qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131mla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n, ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n soraqla\u015fd\u0131m… d\u0259rsl\u0259rim ba\u015flad\u0131. Yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin f\u0259nnl\u0259r, qafqazl\u0131lara soyuq m\u00fcnasib\u0259t, 75 n\u0259f\u0259rlik qrupun i\u00e7ind\u0259 yegan\u0259 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ni s\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r soyuqqanl\u0131 v\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fc insan hesab ets\u0259m d\u0259, q\u0259rib diyarda b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259 hal\u0131m qalm\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259k hiss edirdim… t\u0259kc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131 t\u0259msil etm\u0259li olan bir g\u0259nc kimi daha m\u0259suliyy\u0259tli, daha savadl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259li v\u0259 f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259li idim. Odur ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn kompleksl\u0259rimi bir k\u0259nara qoyub, tam ideal olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Bilirdim ki, m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lara v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycana qiym\u0259t verirl\u0259r. M\u0259niml\u0259 eyni qrupda erm\u0259ni mill\u0259tind\u0259n olan dig\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259nin d\u0259 t\u0259hsl almas\u0131 akademiyada t\u0259hsil alma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sanki \u0259qid\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m otaqda t\u0259k oldu\u011fumdan h\u0259r g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn fikir v\u0259 vaxt\u0131m\u0131 yaln\u0131z d\u0259rsl\u0259rim\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ltmi\u015fdim. N\u0259tic\u0259si d\u0259 olurdu… bel\u0259 ki, m\u0259qbul v\u0259 imtahanlar\u0131m\u0131z ba\u015flayan kimi q\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 t\u0259yyar\u0259l\u0259r kimi \u0259zmli v\u0259 d\u0259qiq n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6st\u0259rirdim. \u201cH\u00fcquq\u201d fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin \u201cD\u00f6vl\u0259t h\u00fcququ\u201d ixtisas\u0131nda t\u0259hsil ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan m\u0259qbul v\u0259 imtahanlar\u0131m\u0131z \u0259sas\u0259n Rusiya Federasiyas\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcquq, konstitusiya, f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 v\u0259 idar\u0259\u00e7ilik sah\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 idi. On iki \u0259d\u0259d m\u0259qbul v\u0259 imtahanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131ndan \u201c\u0259la\u201d qiym\u0259ti alma\u011f\u0131m t\u0259kc\u0259 qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 deyil, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 qiym\u0259t kitab\u00e7am\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b cavab\u0131m\u0131 qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndir\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirirdi. S\u0259b\u0259b is\u0259 ayd\u0131n idi: Az\u0259rbaycandan g\u0259lmi\u015f bir g\u0259ncin, ruslar\u0131n dili des\u0259k, \u201cqara\u201dn\u0131n g\u0259lib Moskvada imtahan sessiyas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259la qiym\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015fa vurmas\u0131 arzuolunan deyildi. H\u0259tta f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 doktoru elmi d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 malik olma\u011f\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tutan b\u0259zi m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rin imtahan zaman\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 amans\u0131z m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti, \u0259lav\u0259 suallar verm\u0259kl\u0259 m\u0259nim qiym\u0259timi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salmaq c\u0259hdl\u0259ri m\u0259nim \u0259zmimi s\u0131nd\u0131ra bilmirdi. Sonda yen\u0259 haqq \u00f6z yerini tuturdu.<\/p>\n

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\u00c7\u0259tin olsa da, Moskvadak\u0131 t\u0259hsilimi u\u011furla davam etdirirdim. He\u00e7 d\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nmir\u0259m… \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da, \u015f\u0259r\u0259flidir… t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, eyni zamanda Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131ml\u0131d\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n tamam ba\u015fqa bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 idi. G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m… atam-anam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n olan insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m… \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 Az\u0259rbaycan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 anlar\u0131m olurdu ki, bir saatl\u0131q Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lib k\u00fcl\u0259kli bulvarda 1 d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurub yenid\u0259n Moskvaya qay\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yirdi. B\u0259z\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259lirdim…<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni tan\u0131yanlar n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6vr\u0259k oldu\u011fumu yax\u015f\u0131 bilirl\u0259r. H\u0259zin bir Az\u0259rbaycan musiqisi, k\u0259d\u0259rli bir segah m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarda bil\u0259r. Odur ki, Moskvada g\u00fcnl\u0259rimin \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti q\u0259mgin ke\u00e7irdi… t\u0259kc\u0259 havan\u0131n soyuq olmas\u0131 deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 insanlar\u0131n yad bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 da m\u0259ni s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n burdayam, b\u0259lk\u0259 \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259dir bu zaman itkisi, d\u0259y\u0259rmi bu \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 qatlanma\u011fa?! B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi at\u0131b q\u0259fil Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131tmaq da ist\u0259yirdim. Amma yen\u0259 sa\u011f olsunlar… ail\u0259miz v\u0259 dostlar\u0131mla g\u00fcnd\u0259lik \u00fcnsiyy\u0259tl\u0259r, internet vasit\u0259sil\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131mla \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc qiyabi d\u0259 olsa, V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 hiss edirdim.<\/p>\n

T\u0259hsilim bit\u0259r-bitm\u0259z art\u0131q Bak\u0131ya biletimi alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u00c7ox h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 Heyd\u0259r \u018fliyev ad\u0131na Beyn\u0259lxalq Hava Liman\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m v\u0259 atam m\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Mehribancas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb evimiz\u0259 yol ald\u0131q. Gec\u0259 saat 02:00 olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, anam yatmay\u0131b m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi… ondan ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim zat\u0259n… m\u0259nim anam bel\u0259 olmal\u0131d\u0131r!<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131da olanda tamam ba\u015fqa hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irirdim. Sanki \u00f6z evimd\u0259, \u00f6z qab\u0131mda, \u00f6z kasamda hiss el\u0259yirdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc. Lakin Bak\u0131da g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 yen\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bilmir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 probleml\u0259r var, yoxsa adi insanl\u0131q hal\u0131d\u0131r… ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r! N\u0259s\u0259 Bak\u0131n\u0131 uzaqlarda olanda daha \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. S\u0259b\u0259bini bilmir\u0259m amma. B\u0259lk\u0259 k\u0259nardan baxanda daxili m\u0259nfilikl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 n\u0259yins\u0259 q\u0259drini bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ondan ayr\u0131 qalmal\u0131san, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259… n\u0259 bilim. Amma bir onu bilir\u0259m ki, Bak\u0131da uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t qalanda dar\u0131x\u0131ram, yorucu t\u0131xaclar, pal\u00e7\u0131ql\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, g\u00fcnd\u0259 suyun saat-saat verilm\u0259si, evl\u0259rimizin soyuq olmas\u0131, adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xardan bezdirici k\u00fcl\u0259k v\u0259 dig\u0259r c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259ri Bak\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. Amma Bak\u0131 yen\u0259 Bak\u0131d\u0131r, Az\u0259rbaycan da V\u0259t\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi is\u0259 Qaxdayam, do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m do\u011fma Qaxda. T\u0259bi\u0259ti m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox do\u011fmad\u0131r, insanlari m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259zizdir. Sabah Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131d\u0131ram, 10-15 g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, amma indi m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn adil\u0259\u015f\u0259n Bak\u0131ya. Amma yen\u0259 sevir\u0259m bu torpa\u011f\u0131, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan izi olan h\u0259r \u015feyi sevir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, ail\u0259mi, xalq\u0131m\u0131 xat\u0131rladan h\u0259r da\u015f\u0131, h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259yi sevir\u0259m. Amma yen\u0259 yola davam edir\u0259m, yen\u0259 \u015fair ruhum oyand\u0131:<\/p>\n

Uzun bir yol gedir\u0259m, yolu yoxdu bu yolun,
\nYoxdu n\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131, yoxdu sonu bu yolun.
\nYol m\u0259nd\u0259n yol soru\u015fur, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qal\u0131b.
\n\u0130kimiz d\u0259 azm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, yolda t\u0259nha qalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q,
\nUzan\u0131b d\u0259rdimiz d\u0259 yollar q\u0259d\u0259r uzan\u0131b,
\nYol yol \u00fcstd\u0259 uzan\u0131b, m\u0259n ayaqda, qalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Allah bilir, daha hans\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259ri g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259m, haralara ayaq basacam. Amma bir arzum da var: he\u00e7 olmasa, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r Qaraba\u011fa ayaq basa bilim. Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rkib hiss\u0259si olan Qaraba\u011fa…<\/p>\n

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eAH\u0130DOV
\n23 Aprel 2011-ci il, saat 23:17, Qax rayonu, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublkas\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca daha yax\u0131ndan ba\u011flan\u0131ram Az\u0259rbaycana… Son 4-5 ild\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m el\u0259 g\u0259tirib ki, vaxt\u0131m\u0131n \u0259sas hiss\u0259nini V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n k\u0259narda ke\u00e7irm\u0259li oluram. \u018fsas\u0259n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif elm v\u0259 t\u0259hsil m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259l\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n d\u0259v\u0259t olundu\u011fum beyn\u0259lxalq konfrans… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":9835,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[90,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2178","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-article"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/shahidov18.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2178","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2178"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2178\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12613,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2178\/revisions\/12613"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/9835"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2178"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2178"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2178"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}