{"id":2137,"date":"2011-02-16T03:18:55","date_gmt":"2011-02-15T23:18:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2137"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:07:05","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:07:05","slug":"m%c9%99n-sair-deyil%c9%99m","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=2137","title":{"rendered":"\u201c\u018fSL \u015eA\u0130RD\u018f G\u018fR\u018fK B\u0130R AZ D\u018fL\u0130L\u0130K OLSUN\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\"\"<\/a>\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov: \u201cRoman\u0131mda Az\u0259rbaycanda ba\u015f ver\u0259n ictimai-siyasi prosesl\u0259r\u0259 maraql\u0131 yana\u015fma s\u0259rgil\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m\u201d<\/strong><\/div>\n
Son vaxtlar g\u0259ncl\u0259rin \u0259d\u0259biyyata mara\u011f\u0131 artmaqdad\u0131r. G\u0259nclik sad\u0259c\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat oxumaqla deyil, eyni zamanda \u0259d\u0259biyyat yaratmaqla da m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur. Burada da f\u0259rqli z\u00f6vql\u0259ri, f\u0259rqli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sezm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Amma \u0259sas bu deyil. \u018fsas olan yeni \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n yaranmas\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rin g\u0259ncl\u0259rin dilind\u0259n poetik t\u0259rzd\u0259 t\u0259svir olunmas\u0131d\u0131r. Bu bax\u0131mdan yenic\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyatla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa ba\u015flayan, onlarla \u015feirin, bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 hekay\u0259nin m\u00fc\u0259llifi olan \u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidovla s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldik. \u0130lk sual\u0131m\u0131z bel\u0259 oldu:<\/div>\n
– \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y, siz \u0259d\u0259biyyata n\u0259 il\u0259 g\u0259ldiniz? \u0130lk yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u0259s\u0259r hans\u0131 janrda olub?<\/strong><\/div>\n
M\u0259n \u0259sas\u0259n \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131ram. Onlarla \u015feirim var.<\/div>\n
– Dem\u0259li, \u015fairsiniz?!<\/strong><\/div>\n
M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u015fair hesab etmir\u0259m. Sad\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259bim g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131ram. V\u0259ss\u0259lam. \u015eair deyil\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– Bu addan niy\u0259 qorxursuz? Yoxsa utan\u0131rs\u0131z \u015fair adlanmaqdan?!<\/strong><\/div>\n
Xeyr. N\u0259 qorxuram, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, utan\u0131ram. Sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, \u015fairl\u0259r qeyri-adi insanlard\u0131r, h\u0259tta m\u0259n dey\u0259rdim ki, \u0259sl \u015faird\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k bir anormall\u0131q olsun. Adi insanlar kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259sin, adi insanlar kimi g\u0259zm\u0259sin, baxmas\u0131n. \u015eairl\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259n incim\u0259sin, amma \u0259sl \u015faird\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k bir az d\u0259lilik olsun. Onda \u0259sl \u015feir, \u0259sl s\u0259n\u0259t yaranar, m\u0259nc\u0259. M\u0259n is\u0259 normal insanam. (G\u00fcl\u00fcr)<\/div>\n
– \u015eeirl\u0259riniz \u0259sas\u0259n hans\u0131 m\u00f6vzulara toxunur?<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u015eeirl\u0259rimi \u0259sas\u0259n fikirl\u0259r, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u011fulanda yaz\u0131ram. Tez-tez d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rimin \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti is\u0259 anam, v\u0259t\u0259nim v\u0259 Allah bar\u0259sind\u0259dir. Odur ki, \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259 \u0259sas x\u0259tt m\u0259hz bu \u00fc\u00e7 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s varl\u0131qdan ke\u00e7ir.<\/div>\n
– B\u0259s sevgi, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 yazm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Ax\u0131 sizin bu m\u00f6vzudak\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259riniz\u0259 d\u0259 rast g\u0259lirik….<\/strong><\/div>\n
D\u00fczd\u00fcr. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. M\u0259n dey\u0259rdim, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rim daha \u00e7oxdur. Amma m\u0259n n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 sevgid\u0259 v\u00fcsal\u0131, hicran\u0131, h\u0259sr\u0259ti, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 daha yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bilir\u0259m. Odur ki, xo\u015fb\u0259xt sevgi haqq\u0131nda \u015feirim he\u00e7 yoxdur.<\/div>\n
– Niy\u0259? Yoxsa bu d\u0259sti-x\u0259tt \u015f\u0259xsi h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131zla ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r? M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t siz\u0259 \u00e7oxmu ac\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdirib?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Ola bil\u0259r. Amma bu haqda dan\u0131\u015fmayaq. \u00c7ox xahi\u015f edir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– \u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyiniz, b\u0259y\u0259ndiyiniz \u015feiriniz hans\u0131d\u0131r? Ondan bir s\u0259tr z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rsinizmi?<\/strong><\/div>\n
(Bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr) \u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyim \u015feirim \u201cS\u0259ns\u0259n\u201d adlan\u0131r:<\/div>\n
S\u0259ni axtarm\u0131\u015fam bir \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu,<\/em><\/div>\n
H\u0259yatda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck u\u011furum s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/em><\/div>\n
Bir bahar s\u0259h\u0259ri i\u00e7im\u0259 dolan<\/em><\/div>\n
Sevgi dolu t\u0259miz n\u0259f\u0259sim s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/em><\/div>\n
*****<\/em><\/div>\n
S\u0259ninl\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 sevgi h\u0259yat\u0131m,<\/em><\/div>\n
Bu yolda s\u0259n m\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259n tutdun.<\/em><\/div>\n
Birlikd\u0259 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck uzun bir yolu,<\/em><\/div>\n
M\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131m s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/em><\/div>\n
Bu \u015feiri he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259ld\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim, amma x\u0259yallar\u0131mdan bir an bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmayan bir g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259sr etmi\u015f\u0259m. Bilmir\u0259m o kimdir, amma bilir\u0259m ki, ya\u015fay\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259ni ya\u015fama\u011fa, yaratma\u011fa s\u00f6vq edir.<\/div>\n
– B\u0259s n\u0259sr nec\u0259? \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131n bu janr\u0131yla aran\u0131z nec\u0259dir? N\u0259s\u0259 yazm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Bir-iki hekay\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam. Amma q\u0131sa hekay\u0259l\u0259rdir. Haz\u0131rda is\u0259 roman yaz\u0131ram. Bu roman b\u00f6y\u00fck hay-k\u00fcy\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olmal\u0131d\u0131r.<\/div>\n
– N\u0259d\u0259n b\u0259hs edir roman\u0131n\u0131z v\u0259 nec\u0259 adlan\u0131r?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Art\u0131q bir ayd\u0131r ki, roman\u0131 yazma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam. Amma ad\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 qoymam\u0131\u015fam, ax\u0131rda bir ad fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259r g\u00fcn yeni hadis\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verir romanda. Bug\u00fcn oturub yaz\u0131ram, amma sabah n\u0259l\u0259r yazaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259qiq bilmir\u0259m. H\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn ssenarisini \u00f6z g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 saxlay\u0131ram. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u0259lir. Bu mara\u011f\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131 daha \u00e7ox ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir az asta-asta yaz\u0131ram. Amma g\u00fcman edir\u0259m ki, 3-4 aya bitir\u0259r\u0259m. Oxucular\u0131m\u0131 intizarda \u00e7ox saxlamaram. Roman bir cavan o\u011flan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259hs edir. K\u0259ndd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb ba\u015fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f bu cavan o\u011flan daha sonra Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lir, burada \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 i\u015f v\u0259 ev tap\u0131r, siyas\u0259t\u0259 qo\u015fulur, yeni-yeni simalarla tan\u0131\u015f olur, \u00f6lk\u0259 siyas\u0259tinin i\u00e7in\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r daxil olur, eyb\u0259c\u0259rlikl\u0259ri, x\u0259yan\u0259tl\u0259ri, iki\u00fczl\u00fcl\u00fckl\u0259ri \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r… qalan\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– Romanda q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131n\u0131z uydurma olacaq? Yoxsa bug\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri t\u0259svir ed\u0259c\u0259ksiniz?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Yox. M\u0259n dig\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259r kimi q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131m\u0131 ya tam, ya da qism\u0259n gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131mdan ba\u015fqa b\u00fct\u00fcn personajlar real h\u0259yatda ya\u015fayan, siyas\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olan insanlard\u0131r. Odur ki, onlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bildiyim kimi canland\u0131racam. Hans\u0131 siyas\u0259t\u00e7ini nec\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259ms\u0259, el\u0259 d\u0259 canland\u0131racam.<\/div>\n
– B\u0259s qorxmursuz ki, roman \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra b\u0259zi siyasi dair\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n siz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 ittihamlar s\u0259sl\u0259ndirilsin? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259nfi <\/strong>obraz kimi canland\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r siz\u0131 q\u0131naya bil\u0259rl\u0259r.<\/div>\n
H\u0259r \u015fey ola bil\u0259r. Amma m\u0259n real h\u0259yat\u0131 yazm\u0131ram ki. M\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 roman yaz\u0131ram, burada h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259nim fantaziyamd\u0131r. Ola bil\u0259r ki, kiminl\u0259s\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcrl\u0259rim tam yaln\u0131\u015f olsun. M\u0259nc\u0259, he\u00e7 bir siyas\u0259t\u00e7i roman m\u00fc\u0259llifini m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r c\u0131l\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 sahibi olmas\u0131n. Amma h\u0259r \u015fey ola bil\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u0259k d\u0259. Yax\u015f\u0131 olar, in\u015fallah.<\/div>\n
– \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, \u00e7a\u011fda\u015f yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lardan, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131ndan kiml\u0259ri oxuyursunuz? V\u0259 kimi b\u0259y\u0259nirsiz?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Vallah, he\u00e7 kimi oxumuram. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm n\u0259s\u0259 yaratma\u011f\u0131 xo\u015flay\u0131ram. Kimis\u0259 oxuyub, sonradan t\u0259qlid etm\u0259kl\u0259 aram yoxdur. M\u0259n real h\u0259yat\u0131, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm, \u015fahidi oldu\u011fum v\u0259 qavrad\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259yat\u0131 yaz\u0131ram. M\u0259nim tarixi fantastikayla, uydurma \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 aram yoxdur.<\/div>\n
– B\u0259s \u015fairl\u0259rd\u0259n kimi b\u0259y\u0259nirsiz?<\/strong><\/div>\n
Salam Sarvan\u0131, Aq\u015fin Yeniseyi, Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259ni v\u0259 Z\u0259limxan Yaqubu \u00e7ox b\u0259y\u0259nir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– \u015eeirl\u0259r kitab\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 n\u0259 zaman oxucular\u0131n ixtiyar\u0131na ver\u0259c\u0259ksiniz? Oxucular n\u0259 zaman sizin \u015feirl\u0259rinizi oxuya bil\u0259rl\u0259r?<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u015eeirl\u0259r kitab\u0131m\u0131 bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 aya t\u0259qdim ed\u0259c\u0259m. Amma oxucular\u0131m m\u0259nim \u015f\u0259xsi sayt\u0131mdan (shahidov.com\/az) \u015feirl\u0259rimi oxuya bil\u0259rl\u0259r. Roman\u0131m\u0131 is\u0259 yayda d\u0259rc etdir\u0259c\u0259m. Sa\u011fl\u0131q olsun.<\/div>\n
– Siz\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda u\u011furlar dil\u0259yirik.<\/strong><\/div>\n
T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrl\u0259r!<\/div>\n
S\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdi: <\/strong><\/div>\n
F\u0259rid \u015eahbazl\u0131<\/strong><\/div>\n
Qaynar.info sayt\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/strong><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov: \u201cRoman\u0131mda Az\u0259rbaycanda ba\u015f ver\u0259n ictimai-siyasi prosesl\u0259r\u0259 maraql\u0131 yana\u015fma s\u0259rgil\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m\u201d Son vaxtlar g\u0259ncl\u0259rin \u0259d\u0259biyyata mara\u011f\u0131 artmaqdad\u0131r. G\u0259nclik sad\u0259c\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat oxumaqla deyil, eyni zamanda \u0259d\u0259biyyat yaratmaqla da m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur. Burada… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[89],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2137","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-musahib"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2137","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2137"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2137\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12571,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2137\/revisions\/12571"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}