{"id":1261,"date":"2010-04-16T18:26:13","date_gmt":"2010-04-16T14:26:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=1261"},"modified":"2020-03-12T15:11:35","modified_gmt":"2020-03-12T11:11:35","slug":"can-dostum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/?p=1261","title":{"rendered":"CAN DOSTUM!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad_ziraddin.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-1262\" style=\"margin: 2px;\" title=\"ahmad_ziraddin\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahmad_ziraddin.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"150\" height=\"100\" \/><\/a>Onunla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qdan \u0259vv\u0259l v\u0259 sonrak\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131m&#8230;<br \/>\n<\/strong> H\u0259yatda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259kliy\u0259 can atm\u0131\u015fam. Evd\u0259, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259, universitetd\u0259, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259 t\u0259k olmu\u015fam. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 insanlara qar\u015f\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ehtiyyatl\u0131l\u0131q, bir n\u00f6v etibars\u0131zl\u0131q var idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki, indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259sl dostlu\u011fun n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011funu bilmirdim. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcnah m\u0259nd\u0259 olub, qapal\u0131 h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi s\u00fcrm\u0259yim, insanlara yuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxma\u011f\u0131m ba\u015fqalar\u0131na olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259timi formala\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 dostluq hissl\u0259rind\u0259n xeyli uzaq olmu\u015fam. <!--more-->H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 can deyib, can e\u015fid\u0259n v\u0259 \u0259sl dost olan insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 sanki pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131m tuturdu. Biri mal\u0131ndan, var-d\u00f6vl\u0259tind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir dostu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, dig\u0259ri h\u0259tta can\u0131n\u0131 da oda yax\u0131r yax\u0131n dostu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lirdi m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bu qabiliyy\u0259ti, h\u0259tta m\u0259n dey\u0259rdim c\u00fcr\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u0259 bilmirdim. \u018fslind\u0259, bu, t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m say\u0131la bilm\u0259zdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki, h\u0259r bir insan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 uy\u011fun, onun m\u0259n\u0259vi duy\u011fular\u0131na, h\u0259tta d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 imkanlar\u0131na uy\u011fun dostu olur. M\u0259n is\u0259 bel\u0259 insan\u0131 k\u0259\u015ff ed\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdim h\u0259l\u0259 ki.<\/p>\n<p>Amma bu \u201ch\u0259l\u0259 ki\u201dnin d\u0259 bir m\u0259ntiqi sonu olaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m buna, axtar\u0131rd\u0131m \u0259sl dostumu. V\u0259 tapd\u0131m. \u018fslind\u0259 onunla dostlu\u011fum bar\u0259d\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, ham\u0131 bilir. H\u0259tta ona \u0259li \u00e7atmayan y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 insan birba\u015fa m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131r, z\u0259ngl\u0259r edir v\u0259 Zir\u0259ddin Rzayevl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. B\u0259li, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00f6hb\u0259tim yen\u0259 onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 olacaq. \u018fslind\u0259 m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131mda \u00e7ox \u00f6n\u0259mli bir yeri olan bu cavan o\u011flan bar\u0259d\u0259 saatlarla dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259r\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki, m\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 iki hiss\u0259y\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m: onunla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r olan \u00f6mr\u00fcm v\u0259 Zir\u0259ddinl\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qdan sonrak\u0131 zaman. B\u0259zil\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259r, amma m\u0259n onu tan\u0131yandan sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259trafa, d\u00fcnyaya, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tim d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Tamam ba\u015fqa \u018fhm\u0259d oldum sanki. \u018fsl dostlu\u011fun n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011funu, bir insana g\u00f6r\u0259 n\u0259inki var-d\u00f6vl\u0259tind\u0259n, h\u0259tta can\u0131ndan da ke\u00e7m\u0259yin nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259c\u0259yini anlad\u0131m. \u018fslind\u0259 onunla ekstresens kimi tan\u0131\u015f olsam da, sonda onunla sad\u0259c\u0259 Zir\u0259ddin kimi dost oldum. \u0130ndi m\u0259ni q\u0259tiyy\u0259n maraqland\u0131rm\u0131r ki, Zir\u0259ddin Rzayev b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyada tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f insand\u0131r, onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 verili\u015fl\u0259r, h\u0259tta kinolar \u00e7\u0259kilir. Yox! M\u0259ni maraqland\u0131ran Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259l gu\u015f\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n olan \u015e\u0259mkirin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ya\u015f kimi s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259n can dostum Zir\u0259ddindir.<\/p>\n<p>Onunla adi s\u00f6hb\u0259tin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu bil\u0259nl\u0259r bilir. T\u0259kc\u0259 ekstrasens deyil Zir\u0259ddin. \u015eair ruhlu insan, g\u00f6z\u0259l ail\u0259 ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, mehriban insan, xeyriyy\u0259\u00e7i g\u0259nc, \u0259sl dost v\u0259 s\u0259mimi h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259t. M\u0259niml\u0259 eyni ya\u015fdad\u0131r. Amma h\u0259r k\u0259lm\u0259sind\u0259 m\u00fcdriklik, uzaqg\u00f6r\u0259nlik v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131ke\u015flik duyulur. H\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259mimi zarafatlar\u0131 var onun. Onu \u00f6z\u00fcm q\u0259d\u0259r tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 san\u0131ram. Tan\u0131y\u0131ram v\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Onunla saatlarla bir yerd\u0259 olmaqdan, maraql\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r etm\u0259kd\u0259n usanm\u0131ram he\u00e7 vaxt. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fli yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olur m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259yatda. H\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259 kimi he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131, mehriban\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hz Zir\u0259ddind\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbd\u0259n donub qal\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130nsanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259diyini hiss edirdim. M\u0259hz Zir\u0259ddin kimi insanlar\u0131n say\u0259sind\u0259 biz d\u00fcnyada haqq-\u0259dal\u0259tin, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tin v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t dostlu\u011fun h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259diyinin \u015fahidi oluruq. V\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r edirik.<\/p>\n<p>Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edir\u0259m ki, Zir\u0259ddin kimi insan\u0131 yarad\u0131b, onu m\u0259nim qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b. Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011fumu kims\u0259 hiss ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z. \u00c7\u00fcnki ill\u0259rdir ki, hiss ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim anlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdi onunla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q. Maddi h\u0259yat\u0131mda da \u00e7ox k\u00f6m\u0259yi olub. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, h\u0259r hans\u0131 \u00e7\u0259tinliyim olanda d\u0259rhal \u00f6z\u00fc z\u0259ng edirdi. Moskvada t\u0259hsil alma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin oldu\u011funu, bunun maddi qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259yin m\u0259nim kimi s\u0131ravi Az\u0259rbaycan g\u0259ncin\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r baha ba\u015fa g\u0259ldiyini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin deyil. M\u0259n t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na bu boyda y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259zdim. Yen\u0259 Zir\u0259ddin k\u00f6m\u0259k \u0259lini uzatd\u0131. \u0130nanmazs\u0131z b\u0259lk\u0259, amma el\u0259 anlar\u0131m olub ki, Moskva kimi \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 cibimd\u0259 son rubllar\u0131m qalan g\u00fcnl\u0259rim d\u0259 olub. Q\u00fcrurum imkan verm\u0259yib ki, kimd\u0259ns\u0259 yard\u0131m ist\u0259yim. Amma bu an q\u0259fil Zir\u0259ddin z\u0259ng edir v\u0259 pulumun qurtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fub m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edir. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fcd\u00fcr. Ax\u0131, o, haradan bilir v\u0259 nec\u0259 hiss edir bunlar\u0131?! O q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259mimi insand\u0131r ki, ona h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, problemimi a\u00e7\u0131b dey\u0259 bilir\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 evd\u0259 valideynl\u0259rim\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim b\u0259zi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259hz t\u0259klikd\u0259 Zir\u0259ddin\u0259 dey\u0259 bilir\u0259m. Moskvada olanda qohumlar\u0131m\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tinin bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015famas\u0131na baxmayaraq, \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 Zir\u0259ddin yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259ni he\u00e7 zaman q\u0131rmay\u0131b Zir\u0259ddin. B\u00fct\u00fcn ist\u0259kl\u0259rimi, arzular\u0131m\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetirib. Odur ki, onun m\u0259n\u0259 etdikl\u0259rinin \u0259v\u0259zini qism\u0259n d\u0259 olsa, \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259limd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni edir\u0259m. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyimd\u0259n, h\u0259tta Allah\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi can\u0131mdan da ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131ram. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, can dostumdur Zir\u0259ddin Rzayev. Ona at\u0131lan h\u0259r bir \u015f\u0259r, b\u00f6htan sanki m\u0259nim q\u0259lbim\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan nam\u0259rd g\u00fcll\u0259sidir. Allah b\u00fct\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 insanlar\u0131 nam\u0259rd g\u00fcll\u0259sind\u0259n qorusun!<\/p>\n<p><strong>PhD \u018fhm\u0259d \u015eahidov<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Onunla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qdan \u0259vv\u0259l v\u0259 sonrak\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131m&#8230; H\u0259yatda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259kliy\u0259 can atm\u0131\u015fam. Evd\u0259, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259, universitetd\u0259, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259 t\u0259k olmu\u015fam. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 insanlara qar\u015f\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ehtiyyatl\u0131l\u0131q, bir n\u00f6v etibars\u0131zl\u0131q var idi.&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[90,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1261","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mullif-yazilari","category-article"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1261"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12628,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261\/revisions\/12628"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1261"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1261"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shahidov.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1261"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}